Desire doesn’t equal capacity to receive

It’s one thing to desire something.

It’s another thing to be able to receive what you’re calling in.

On a cognitive level, this often doesn’t make sense.
If I want it, I must be ready for it — right?

Not always.

Because on a physical level, receiving can feel like a threat to the nervous system. And the nervous system’s job isn’t to make your dreams come true — it’s to keep you safe.

This is often what you’re experiencing when you’ve “tried everything,” done the inner work, and still feel like you’re hitting an invisible wall.

The good news:
That wall isn’t permanent.
And it’s not personal.

I want to show you what this looks like on a micro level — in real life, in real moments.

The other morning, I woke up feeling sad.

Because I’ve trained myself to stay with uncomfortable emotions instead of immediately fixing or escaping them, I noticed the first thought that followed:

I’m in a bad mood today.
This means I’m not worthy of receiving.
Not worthy of love.
Not worthy of the riches of life.
I should fix myself and come back when I feel better.

And honestly — I was surprised.

I thought I had already worked through that pattern.
But there it was. Subtle. Residual. Still alive.

This is my work — and my edge.

Not pretending these moments don’t happen.
But knowing how to meet them when they do.

Because blame is useless here.
Understanding why the belief exists can be interesting, but it’s not required for change.

What matters is recognizing what’s happening now.

In that moment, I saw clearly:
My worth was still tied — on some level — to being the “good girl.”

The one who doesn’t need too much.
Who doesn’t cry too loudly.
Who doesn’t express too much or too little.
Who doesn’t inconvenience anyone.
Who feels responsible for the emotional state of others.

That conditioning was formed early.
And it lived in my body long before it lived in language.

So instead of pushing it away, I stayed.

I sat with the tightness.
I regulated my nervous system.
(I’ll always credit Jennifer Mann’s work here — if you’re new to nervous system regulation, her teachings are invaluable.)

And then I gently introduced a new internal truth — not as something to believe, but something to let my body respond to.

One sentence I often use is:

“I am someone who can effortlessly receive the riches of life — without needing to do, prove, perform, perfect, or fix anything.”

If you say that — quietly or out loud — notice what happens in your body.

You don’t need to believe it.
Belief is overrated.

Neutral is enough.

If your body tightens, resists, or feels emotional — that’s not failure.
That’s information.

The work doesn’t happen by repeating affirmations a thousand times a day.
That often creates more resistance.

The work happens when you allow the sensation — the fear, sadness, or tightness — to be there, without pushing it away.

Just like holding space for a child’s emotions.
When we try to suppress them, chaos follows.
When we stay present, they move through.

So the next time a tightening belief arises — and yes, even these emails can act as gentle triggers — don’t avoid it.

Meet it.

Because receiving doesn’t open through force.
It opens through presence.

And if receiving is where you currently feel blocked, there are two ways to go deeper when you’re ready:

The Present Moment Truth — where you learn to work with these moments as they happen, neutralizing triggers in real time.
The Alignment Project — for those ready to live what they already know to be true, consistently and embodied.

No rush.
Just direction.

Love & Light

Reelika